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??????? The skies, which hasn’t been clear for a long time,
???????? still reminds me of your smile
????????? I cried, but it didn’t diminish the sense of guilt.
??????? Like the kite entangled in a deadlock on a cloudy day,
???????? I’m still waiting to be rescued from my constant pining,
??????????? as I can only live in the memory of your gentleness while I pull its strings.
???????? Callously, loneliness
??????? laughs at my inability to fulfil promises.
???????????? How could you have forgiven me?
????????? The words I can say all seem to be scripted & insincere
???????? reiterating how I’ve hurt you.
?????? I can’t forgive myself -
????????? please pretend that I don’t exist.
????????? I opened my eyes & stared into space,
????????? forgetting your expectations of me.
????? After being able to ignore your dependence on me,
?????? I’ll leave soon after.


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??????????? I’m left with only the piano
???????????? & the sleeping, quiet, old cello to accompany me.

??????????? I think you’ve made yourself very clear -
???????????? I understand & know that you won’t look back.

??????????? I don’t believe it when you tell me it upsets you too;
??????????? Your companionship is but a thing of the past.
???????????? I hope that he truly loves you more than I do,
???????? so that I can force myself to leave.

?????????????? You want me to reveal how upset I am to part;
???????????? why do you also expect me to dismiss it with a smile?
?????????????? I’m not gifted enough, to condone your behaviour & accept his presence.
?????????????? Don’t worry, I’ll be alright.
?????????????? You’ve left, so I guess I’m leaving too, gradually.
???????????? Why do I always give in to you, even at the point of separation?
?????????????? I’m really not talented enough, I cant suppress my emotions so soon.
?????????????? But I’ll learn to let go; & the only reason is that I love you too much