The sinner

She beckons you
She's so beautiful
Oh what a smile
Oh I've been in denial

She entices me
I fall, fall easily
She tells me her business
Oh, she knows my weakness

She takes her time, then hurries up
She's gotta go, elsewhere to scrub
She leaves me wanting more
She leaves me in a state of sorrow.

I am left in despair
Oh she doesn't care
I am left like this because I dare
I feared not God, I feared not a hair

He follows me wherever I go
He knows me weaknesses too
And my every thought
He sends me His love, even though I do not.

He does wonderful things
Everytime I do sin
His grace abounds like the whisper of a sound
But I still can't get over her, not right now.

But I must, I know I can
I have to, to stand to stand.

Thoughts
written on a coach back from Buffalo, NY to NYC

Thoughts travel miles
Leaving a city to another
Rats on the streets
Bright lights and towering concrete
Yet thoughts travel miles

Thoughts travel in my being
From the fierce falling life restoring
Can't seem to run away
Can't seem to stop falling.

Bring me back to life
song by Evanscence

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)