Faithless

Soft hair in the mist of an imperfect face
I lie waiting for your warm embrace
I sleep hoping for a silent kiss
Waiting for you to hold me close

You promised to come back for me
But I keep forgetting
With impatient heart I look elsewhere for love
Knowing deep inside and out, I've made a mistake

I kept my idols, I commit crimes against thee
I lost my focus, I lost my innocence waiting for thee

Your love i am unworthy
I sought another's love
Why do you keep wanting me over again
This dirty ugly soul

Please don't leave me
But please understand
I am only human
A poor excuse from a man

Leave me I can understand
But please don't, or I will never stand
Dear God, I wish I was more sorry than this
But I will sin again.

I miss you

I think I actually miss you
Although I've left and neglected you
But you always appear in my mind
From time to time, you surprise me with your love

I left for a better future
But maybe I haven't found it yet
I left for brighter years ahead
But maybe I left what was my light and love behind

So I'm coming home soon
Please remember me
Remember the fun times we've had
Forget not the treasure we've gathered
In time, space and distance

Would you remember me?
Would you care enough?
Like a prodigal son
I come back to you
Hold me in your arms

Maybe I'm just dreaming
maybe I'll leave again
maybe you don't love me anymore
Maybe things might be the same

I anticipate a coming
I anticipate a dream

Sometimes love just ain't enough

i don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And i don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But i don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool i keep losing my place
And i keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now i could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes i may have hurt you
But i did not desert you
Maybe i just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain

And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where i used to lay

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know its your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

Crack in my heel

There' s crack in my heel
It hurts, and it doesn't heal.
It's deep, but it doesn't bleed.
It's painful, but it does scream.

The crack in my heel
Reminds me of my weak self-indulgent nature
Always wanting more pain, and getting nothing in return.
The crack in my heel will always be there
Tormenting me, hurting me, condamning me to hell.

Weird

I acted weird today
But I didn't mean to
I just wanted to show
My affection for you

I acted strange just now
But all I wanted
was to show you somehow
that you mean more to me than my words can express

I acted funny for a moment
But that moment must have been golden
You laughed, and I was happy
But later I think I scared you away unintentionally.

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 ok you can come back now.

The sinner

She beckons you
She's so beautiful
Oh what a smile
Oh I've been in denial

She entices me
I fall, fall easily
She tells me her business
Oh, she knows my weakness

She takes her time, then hurries up
She's gotta go, elsewhere to scrub
She leaves me wanting more
She leaves me in a state of sorrow.

I am left in despair
Oh she doesn't care
I am left like this because I dare
I feared not God, I feared not a hair

He follows me wherever I go
He knows me weaknesses too
And my every thought
He sends me His love, even though I do not.

He does wonderful things
Everytime I do sin
His grace abounds like the whisper of a sound
But I still can't get over her, not right now.

But I must, I know I can
I have to, to stand to stand.

Thoughts
written on a coach back from Buffalo, NY to NYC

Thoughts travel miles
Leaving a city to another
Rats on the streets
Bright lights and towering concrete
Yet thoughts travel miles

Thoughts travel in my being
From the fierce falling life restoring
Can't seem to run away
Can't seem to stop falling.

Bring me back to life
song by Evanscence

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Goodbye To You
by Michelle Branch

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star

Forward

I wake up cold
The winter's air chokes me
My bed holds me back
I don't want to wake up

I don't want to wake up
There's nothing to look forward to
Life has no meaning other than the meaning of life
I just can't go on living like this

I just can't go on living like this
I got to snap back to reality
Life goes on indefinately
I'll look forward to pleasant things

I'll look forward to pleasant things
Like the warmth of a caring mother
An advice of a wise father
A kiss and a hug from a loving sister

river flow

When you told me that you didn't love me
that didn't hurt me just as much
When you kissed another image
that didn't pinch me twice as hard
When you said you'll love only me
only to give your heart away the next minute
that didn't shatter me as much as when we were apart
It's when you said I didn't love you,
that was when the river flowed tears

tears flowed down like a river last night
my cheeks the banks of the river
to think I couldn't love you
perhaps I couldn't love you true enough
I didn't love you, I didn't care
I was being foolish
like I was last night sitting down there
the river flowed like a silly lost kid
trying to find his mother desperately
I sat there crying wondering what was wrong
But I end up sighing, painlessly.

To My Son
written by my mum.

6 pounds of joy was what you brought
17 June 1978 we had not forgot.
I was pleasantly surprised
When I heard your cries
In my drowsy mind I heard as I lay
The nurses comment ‘what a lucky lady’
It’s a boy!
What a joy!

You were a good baby,
So proud in our arms we carry.
I got a bouquet from Dad,
Who said I deserved the best.

It seems just like a flash to Dad and me
To primary, secondary school and then to poly.
And soon you are away
To Brisbane, Australia
We miss you and worry
But you made it, we are happy
From Dad and me
Happy birthday

Lonely

I'm feeling so lonely but do you care
Why was I taken into your cold cold stare?
Why did you hurt me so badly?
Yet you said you loved me.
Truly, if you did you wouldn't have cheated, you wouldn't have lied.
I feel so hurt deep down inside.

I'm feeling so lonely but I don't care
As long as your happy and that I am aware
You truly deserve the best and I know I'm not good enough
I just pray that he lay down his life in your path
Just remember that your loved by me
And I want you to be happy.

I'm feeling lonely but I'm waiting patiently there
For you, for you to appear in the clouded air
Take me away to the place that we belong
I promise I'll try my very best to be strong
I'll take care of you, be there when you're sad
I don't want you to feel like I do, lonely and despaired.

Come soon, whoever you might be
that we might live happily
I don't care if you're not perfect or cool
I just want to be with you
I don't care if you've gone through shit
cos I have too, but I want it to be made beautiful
just for you, we can be in love. Just us two. Me and you.

Matrix Leloa-led

It's amazing how Hokkein can be so funny. Next time I shall try to translate wrestling in Hokkein.

(Warning: Contains Spoilers)

A mrbrown.com Exclusive!

Translated by the Ah Beng Creative Director for those Engrish not powderful. Enjoy.



The Architect - Hello, Neo.

Ah Neo, ho bo?



Neo - Who are you?

Lur si siang?



The Architect - I am the Architect. I created the matrix. I've been waiting for you. You have many questions, and although the process has altered your consciousness, you remain irrevocably human.

Wah si zho chu eh lang. Wah zho matrix. Wah tan lur jin ku liao. Lur ai mng wah jin zwei ming kia. lur tum po xiao xiao, ta pi ya si lang.



Ergo, some of my answers you will understand, and some of them you will not. Concordantly, while your first question may be the most pertinent, you may or may not realize it is also irrelevant.

And den, wah kong eh ming kia, wu eh ming kia lur eh sai ming pei, wu eh ming lur bway sai. Concordantly, lur eh seng ai wah kong eh ming kia ka na jin zong yao, ta bi xi bo liao eh.



Neo - Why am I here?

Wah ti ji dao zho xi mi gui?



The Architect - Your life is the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced equation inherent to the programming of the matrix. You are the eventuality of an anomaly, which despite my sincerest efforts I have been unable to eliminate from what is otherwise a harmony of mathematical precision.

Lur si matrix bo ho sei sekali an ni kua eh. Wah bei sai an ni zhun zhun.



The Architect - While it remains a burden to sedulously avoid it, it is not unexpected, and thus not beyond a measure of control. Which has led you, inexorably, here.

Wah siam ya bei sai, control ya bei sai. Ta pi lur lai liao so ho say liao lor.



Neo - You haven't answered my question.

Lur kong xi mi gui?



The Architect - Quite right. Interesting. That was quicker than the others.

Dio! Lur kong wei kiang! Bi e nang kin.



*The responses of the other Ones appear on the monitors: "Others? What others? How many? Answer me!"*

Xi mi sai! Gui eh lang? Ga lim peh kong!



The Architect - The matrix is older than you know. I prefer counting from the emergence of one integral anomaly to the emergence of the next, in which case this is the sixth version.

Matrix jin jia lao. Wah xio eng kai wu luck eh matrix liao.



*Again, the responses of the other Ones appear on the monitors: "Five versions? Three? I've been lied too. This is bull****.*

Gor eh? Sar? Gong pian way. Gu sai!



Neo: There are only two possible explanations: either no one told me, or no one knows.

Hmm bo lang ka lim peh kong or bo lang zai ya.



The Architect - Precisely. As you are undoubtedly gathering, the anomaly's systemic, creating fluctuations in even the most simplistic equations.

Dio! lur xi matrix long zong sa lah eh ming kia rojak liao then an ni kwan.



*Once again, the responses of the other Ones appear on the monitors: "You can't control me! **** you! I'm going to kill you! You can't make me do anything!*

Lur bay sai control wah! K** N* N** B**! Wah ho lur si! Lur mai kio wa zo ming kia.



Neo - Choice. The problem is choice.

Choose. Xi choose hor lang zho pai.



*The scene cuts to Trinity fighting an agent, and then back to the Architects room*

Chio bu sio pah.



The Architect - The first matrix I designed was quite naturally perfect, it was a work of art, flawless, sublime. A triumph equaled only by its monumental failure.

Wah seng zho eh matrix. Swee swee. Ho kwa. Ta pi kenna twa zong.



The inevitability of its doom is as apparent to me now as a consequence of the imperfection inherent in every human being, thus I redesigned it based on your history to more accurately reflect the varying grotesqueries of your nature.

Ji zhun wah zaiya si in wei lur lang xim bo ho. Wah yah an ni kwan program yi eh matrix tum po bo ho lor.



However, I was again frustrated by failure. I have since come to understand that the answer eluded me because it required a lesser mind, or perhaps a mind less bound by the parameters of perfection.

Ko ji pai, zho ka twa zong then bo hwa hee. Wah then zai ka ki bwei ming pei eh. Wah eng kai eng bo liao tao nao zo ho.



Thus, the answer was stumbled upon by another, an intuitive program, initially created to investigate certain aspects of the human psyche.

Thus, ji eh hor paat eh program eng kai zo pat eh ming kia then hu lang keng pwa to then ming pei eh.



If I am the father of the matrix, she would undoubtedly be its mother.

Lim pei si matrix lau peh. Yi xi lao bu lor.



Neo - The Oracle.

Auntie.



The Architect - Please. As I was saying, she stumbled upon a solution whereby nearly 99.9% of all test subjects accepted the program, as long as they were given a choice, even if they were only aware of the choice at a near unconscious level. While this answer functioned, it was obviously fundamentally flawed, thus creating the otherwise contradictory systemic anomaly, that if left unchecked might threaten the system itself. Ergo, those that refused the program, while a minority, if unchecked, would constitute an escalating probability of disaster.

Ho sim lah, wah eh hiao liao. If lim pei hor lur nang choose, lur nang wu 99.9% gong eh sai. Ta pi an ni kwan zho ming kia, eh sai wu tai ji eh.



Neo - This is about Zion.

Zi eh si wah eh chu eh ming kia! Jai-en!



The Architect - You are here because Zion is about to be destroyed. Its every living inhabitant terminated, its entire existence eradicated.

Lur lai in wei Jai-en ai zi-ba-bo liao. Long zhong nang hor wah zho xi!



Neo - Bull****.

Gu sai!



*The responses of the other Ones appear on the monitors:

"Bull****!"*

Gu Sai!



The Architect - Denial is the most predictable of all human responses. But, rest assured, this will be the sixth time we have destroyed it, and we have become exceedingly efficient at it.

Lur nang ta pai gong bo siang sin. Ta pi wah nang ya ti ti hor lur nang xi. Ji jun zho ka swee swee.



*Scene cuts to Trinity fighting an agent, and then back to the Architects room.*

Chio bu sio pa then tng lai.



The Architect - The function of the One is now to return to the source, allowing a temporary dissemination of the code you carry, reinserting the prime program. After which you will be required to select from the matrix 23 individuals, 16 female, 7 male, to rebuild Zion.

Ah Wan eng kai balek kumpung then ka lim peh gong ming kia. Jai-en bo liao then lur eh sai choose 23 lang. 16 za bor, 7 ta por zo sin eh jai-en.



Failure to comply with this process will result in a cataclysmic system crash killing everyone connected to the matrix, which coupled with the extermination of Zion will ultimately result in the extinction of the entire human race.

Bo jo jiu xi long zhong system lang gah. Then long jai-en lang xi.



Neo - You won't let it happen, you can't. You need human beings to survive.

Lur bwey sai an ni kwan zho. Bwa gum. Lur bo lang bwei sai mah.



The Architect - There are levels of survival we are prepared to accept. However, the relevant issue is whether or not you are ready to accept the responsibility for the death of every human being in this world.

Mm si bwei sai, xi tum po kan kor lor. Ta pi, lur ai sabo long zhong lang xi meh?



*The Architect presses a button on a pen that he is holding, and images of people from all over the matrix appear on the monitors*

TV wu jin zwei lang.



The Architect - It is interesting reading your reactions. Your five predecessors were by design based on a similar predication, a contingent affirmation that was meant to create a profound attachment to the rest of your species, facilitating the function of the one. While the others experienced this in a very general way, your experience is far more specific. Vis-a-vis, love.

Wah kwa lur ji ho kwa. Lur eh gor eh peng yew ya xi ka lur an ni kwan. Kwa TV then bwei sai sabo tio bo?



*Images of Trinity fighting the agent from Neos dream appear on the monitors*

Chio bu sio pah ji TV.



Neo - Trinity.

Lianity!



The Architect - Apropos, she entered the matrix to save your life at the cost of her own.

Yi ka ki jip matrix ai kew lur eh.



Neo - No!

Bei sai!



The Architect - Which brings us at last to the moment of truth, wherein the fundamental flaw is ultimately expressed, and the anomaly revealed as both beginning, and end.

Start eh zho bo ho then liao eh xi zhun ya zho bo ho.



There are two doors. The door to your right leads to the source, and the salvation of Zion. The door to the left leads back to the matrix, to her, and to the end of your species.

Wu neng eh mng. Ji eh hor zion ho sei. Jia chew peng kur Lianity eh tao kew yi.



As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you're going to do, don't we?

Lur gong wei gao. Xi choice then bo ho mah. Ta pi wah nang eh zai lur ah zho si mi tio boh?



Already I can see the chain reaction, the chemical precursors that signal the onset of emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic, and reason. An emotion that is already blinding you from the simple, and obvious truth: she is going to die, and there is nothing that you can do to stop it.

Wah kwa lur eh zha bor peng yew ai xi liao ta pi Lur ai ka ani kwan bei xai kwa yi ba lu xi liao.



*Neo walks to the door on his left*

Kia jia chew.



The Architect - Humph. Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness.

Hai yah. Hope xi zo lang eh pian ming kia ta pi hor lang wu lat ka bo lat.



Neo - If I were you, I would hope that we don't meet again.

Lur mai hor lim pei kwar lur or wah eh hoot lur.



The Architect - We won't.

Kwa bwei tio liao lah.

One Game One Dream by Wang Jie
briefly translated by Sean Koh

don’t talk about parting
i won't cry over it
It is just a dream i had last night

Don’t talk about willingness
i won't be bothered by it
It was just a game we had yesterday

It’s just a game and a dream
Although your shadows still appear in my dreams
But you no longer exist in my songs

It’s just a game and dream
Don’t leave your lame love here
In a world for two, you shouldn't be here

Oh~
Why talk about about parting?
And then u talk about being together?
Although i don't have you now,
i am still myself.

Say what everlasting love?
Why say "I love you"?
Although I lost you
I am still myself

The Glass

Once again the glass shatters
So my theory has always been right
Never make the glass too thin
It will break before your sight.

Look through it again and you'll see
that things look different, for you and me
I cannot see you clearly anymore
and you would never want to believe

The glass shatters once again
And it's all my fault
I didn't do a good job of holding the glass in place
I will never look into that glass ever again anymore.

Love

Who invented love?
why did He leave gaps in between?
Why didn't he leave a manual?
Love 101 for us to read?

Why is love so hard to practice?
Why is love so hard to do?
Are there any missing gears or nuts?
Are there any missing tools?

Why is love such a weird feeling?
Why is love such a stupid thing?
Why does it take two to love?
Why can't it be more than 3?

Is it possible to love but not be loved back?
What's the criteria set in stone, set in black?
Why do people feel miserable in love?
Wasn't love suppose to be perfect?

Forgiveness

I've lost all joy in writing poetry
Because of someone's stupidity
I cannot make a melody
Forgive you, forgive me.

I don't know what to do
Seems like an easy solving clue
but what do i do with you
what must i do to stop you from becoming a fool?

Maybe the fool isn't you it's me
because I seem to ignore your stupidity.
You're the naive one, but so am I
Just leave me here to die.

I've lost all hope in love poetry
Maybe I should pack my bags for Italy
Live there in a whole new world
Get away from love... literally.

What do i do with you?
What do i do with me?
what do I do with forgiveness?
What do I do with poetry?

Be there
sung to the tune of qing fei de yi

Can't believe that I have met you
A sweet girl as cute as you
Can't believe the way you smile at me
Makes my world so beautiful

If i could just have this one wish
It would be to live like this:
In this big world with you alone
Nothing that could take you from me

Chorus:
But if you leave and walk away from me
that would be the saddest day for me
How could I live without your love
Can't you see your love is more than enough?

Please don't leave and walk away from me
I dont' know if I could ever be
So happy or be the same
Say you'll always be there for me

Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how to feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just do

Gimme a lil time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how to feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

And I know I'm not ready,
Maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change [4x]

Patience
a song by Guns and Roses

Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt
You're in my heart now

Said, woman, take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said, sugar, make it slow
And we come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(patience)
Mm, yeah

I sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now
I'll wait, dear
Sometimes I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love
There's one more thing to consider

Said, woman, take it slow
And things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said, sugar, take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes
To make it, We won't fake it,
I'll never break it
'cause I can't take it

(whistle)
...little patience, mm yeah, mm yeah
need a little patience, yeah
just a little patience, yeah
some more patience, yeah
need some patience, yeah
could use some patience, yeah
gotta have some patience, yeah
all it takes is patience,
just a little patience
is all you need *

I BEEN WALKIN' THE STREETS AT NIGHT
JUST TRYIN' TO GET IT RIGHT
HARD TO SEE WITH SO MANY AROUND
YOU KNOW I DON'T LIKE
BEING STUCK IN THE CROWD
AND THE STREETS DON'T CHANGE
BUT BABY THE NAME
I AIN'T GOT TIME FOR THE GAME
'CAUSE I NEED YOU
YEAH, YEAH, BUT I NEED YOU
OO, I NEED YOU
WHOA, I NEED YOU
OO, ALL THIS TIME **
(ah)

Questions of a dream - pun intended

Was it a dream that had no happy ending
or have I just woken up from a dream that would continue later?

Why does the dream linger in my mind?
Why can't I drift further from here and nearer to you?
After all, don't dreams bring us nearer to reality?

Why do I think of the dream?
Why does the dream smile so sweetly?
Would I forget the dream? Or would the dream forget me?

Why do dreams leave us in a state of confusion?
I'll just sit here and enjoy the dream. Because dreams make me happy.

Make... not war
incoherent mumblings by me

Make Chocolate not war
make music not war
make me a nice sweater with my name carved on the sleeves.

Make the children happy by bringing them to the park.

Let the world cry out to God in holy prayer.

Make love not war
make computers go faster
make money, make it work for u

make war go away. Make George Bush more intelligent
Make Saddam Hussien wear make up.
Make a fool of yourself, of others and of me.

Make me happy. Make you glad
Make you miss your family and learn to treasure them more
make anything but war.

Dear Christian
inspired by Eminem's Stan, also sang to the same tune

Chorus:
The trees feel cold I'm wondering why
my bed is made of wood
The morning sun shine through my window
now I can't see at all
And even if I could I must wear my specs
but nowadays got contacts
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..



Dear Christian,

I wrote but you still ain't bothered
I left my mobile, my pager, and my home phone at the corner
I sent two letters back in November, you must not remember
You were probably busy with some other important stuff or whatever
Sometimes I get work piled up till I have a fever
but anyways; forget it, what's been up? Man how's your doggy?
My bull terrier’s sick, I’m about to be lonely
If I get another puppy, guess what I'ma call he?
I'ma name her Christian
I heard about your computer crush too I'm sorry
I had a friend I couldn’t ICQ for 15 days, or 20?
I know you probably hear this regularly, but I'm your bestest friend
I even got the rare pictures you took with Di-anne
I got a drawer full of your jokes and your presents man
I like the pants you gave on my birthday too, but now I’m fat
Anyways, I hope you read this man, write me back,
or a chat, truly yours, your bestest friend
This is Dan

Chorus



Dear Christian,
you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance
I ain't mad - I just think it's irritating you don't answer friends
If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your classroom
you didn't have to, but you coulda gave some money to RESCUE
That's a Christian charity man, they take care of the poor and old
They waited in the blistering cold for you,
for hours and you just said, "No."
That's pretty meany man - you're like their only hero
They were depending on you man, they need you more than I do
I ain't that mad though, I just don't like liars too
Remember the other time in December - you said if they wait for you
you would donate more - see I'm just like them in a way
I never had a childhood neither;
I used to always steal from my friends just to eat dinner
I can relate to what you're saying in your songs
so when I have a lousy day, I drift away and sing-a-long
cause I don't really got a religion so Christian songs helps when I'm depressed
I even tried to do pray and think of what to confess
Sometimes I even think of Christ being God and still he bleeds
It's like impossible, the pain is such a sudden shock to me
See everything He says is real, and I respect Him cause He tells it
The people got jealous cause He tells the truth 24/7
But I don't know him like you know Him Christian, no one does
You don't know what it was like for people like me growin up
You gotta call me man, I'll be the bestest friend you'll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Dan -- P.S.
We should go to church together too

Chorus


Dear Mister-I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Friends,
this'll be the last package I ever send to your address
It's been six months and still no word - I don't deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters;
I got them registered
So this is my cassette I'm sending you, I hope you hear it
I'm in my room right now, I'm smoking like a chimney
Hey Christian, I drank a cup of poison, think I would die?
You know the song by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night"
about that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning
but didn't, then Phil saw it all, then at a show he found him?
That's kinda how this is, you coulda rescued me from dying
Now it's too late - I'm on my thousandth panadol now, I'm drowsy
and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I burned all your photos on the floor
I love you Christian, we coulda sang together, think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can't pray and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me
See Christian; {*screaming*} Quiet mum! I'm tryin to talk!
Hey Christian, that's my mother screamin in the hall
but I never disobeyed her, I just wanted to be good, see I ain't like you
cause if I die she’ll suffer less and get the insurance too
Well, gotta go, I'm almost reaching heaven now
Oh shoot, I forgot, how'm I supposed to send this tape out?

Chorus:


Dear Dan, I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy
You said your doggy’s sick, feeling better is she?
Look, I'm really annoyed you would call your puppy that
and here's some money for RESCUE,
I could only salvage 20 cents
I'm sorry I didn't call you outside class, I would have dissed you
Don't think I would make all that effort just to say I miss you?
And what's this thing you said about you like to sing my songs too?
I sing that for choir man,
c'mon - how tone deaf are you?
You got some problem Dan, I think you need some counseling
but not from me, I’m not qualified to listen to weirdos singing.
And what's this thing about us going to church together?
That type of news makes me not want us to meet each other
I really think you need to go to church or rather
– what I mean is go to another
I hope you get to read this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time
before you hurt yourself, I think that you'll be doin just fine
if you found a church, I'm glad you like to sing Dan but
don’t be mad! Try to understand, that I do want you as a friend
I just don't want you to be seen with a weirdo on the street
I seen this one scene on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some weirdo was at home burning up photos of his friend
and his mother was in the hall, and she was actually mentally insane
and in the room they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to
Come to think about, his name was.. it was you
Damn!

I dreamt of you last night
I dreamt I touched your arm
I touched your face
You might have been crying

I dream of you in the day
walking down the street
sitting down in Macdonalds
sipping away your corn soup

I dream of you in the morning
waking up for school
leaving the house to educate yourself
but I'm sure you know something your teacher doesn't.

Tell me I can touch you again
smile again. Things would be the same
or even better
despite the distance, the weather
difference it doesn't matter
I just want to be with you
stay with you
take care of you
forever know you are safe in His arms.

But I already know that.
So I don't have to worry
cos I tell Him at night to take care of you
and He does.

Can you tell?
sung to the tune of I'm with you by Avril Lavigne

I'm sitting at the comp
just thinking of this song
I wonder if I've change at all...

the holidays have end
it's time to go my friend
I wish that I could bring you along

what does the future hold in store
would it train me to be strong?

Like a damn cold night
the future an unknown light
will you still be there for me near and far
I don't know what the future brings
can you tell?
can you tell?

Sin

She seduces like a slender figured female friend
Entices me to sleep with her
Like a speeding car on an oil smeered track
I go along on the ride

Deep inside snarling waiting to devour
she softly speaks to me love
she gently licks my wounds and heals them
deceitfully leaking poison into my blood

I leave her hating myself
only to come back for more of her tenderness
she smiles her sweet lips curved in perfection
but a crecent shaped trap was all it was

I lie helpless in the springs of danger
knowing I will die in time
but the pleasure that she delivers
keeps me trapped inside

My beautiful world
Inspired by a friend who lived it

My beautiful world is full of grace
Ideas of my own that resides behind this face
I laugh at them, smile at them
I think about them all the time

They might be silly to you
but they are precious to me
go ahead, laugh at me
but it's not for you to see

In my beautiful world
there are many possiblities
I can float in the air
not a care in the world

I can ride a bus full of people
come on board! Everyone is equal!
I can swim in the ocean
I can ride the waves dripping of sun tan lotion

I love my beautiful world
not for its reality
I can dream of it
even if it's insanity

Profanity, calamity
it doesn't exist in my beautiful world
because this world is too beautiful
to be ruin by the artificial

This is my beautiful world
my passions and my desires
And I'm the pilot, driver and captain
For who's to say I can't dream of things higher?

Beautiful

When I look into your eyes
I see a child so sweet and mild
So meek and lovely
your smile is all I want to see each day

you are so beautiful
your soul touches mine everytime
your soul so rich and full of selfless love
I look at mine and wonder if I can be like you

you're emotional and that I love about you
because you can feel what I am blind to
you can hear what I fail to notice
and you sense the sadness of the world we're in

But you fail to see what I see in you
you're beautiful
you do not know what I know about you
you're beautiful

you're beautiful
no matter how you feel
God has made you so
you're beautiful
no matter what you think
because I know your soul.
you're beautiful
no matter what your emotions tell you
I know because I know I'll miss you
you're beautiful
no matter what
because I know I want to be with you.

Gong Xi Fa Cai
by Sean Koh

it's two days before C-N-Y and i'm here listening to eminem / not a big
fan
of the festival, dun wanna see no who-ever no relative no friend / i
can't
care less if you think i'm anti-social / truth is i've never been a
person
for those people / i'm prone to stone at home alone / sit back, relax,
chat
on the phone / lazing, grazing and watching wrestling / or amusing
myself
with the songs i sing / you know i used to really like it / visiting
meant i
could pocket some money / but as i grew olda, the packets grew thina /
the
ang pows start to contain less moolah / the bah kwas used to taste so
great
/ but now i tend to watch my weight / i swim and gym to stay so slim /
i
won't risk being a moses lim / you were taught to clench your hands
together
/ and some nice shit you're supposed to utter / the adults give ya
packets
containing dollars / in return, their kids take from your mothers

C to the N to the Y oh 'Hi!'
'aunties, uncles, gong xi fa cai!'
C to the N to the Y oh 'Hi!'
'aunties, uncles, gong xi fa cai!'

in a time where big shots behave like vultures / we are reminded to
uphold
our cultures / humans are such peculiar creatures / twisted and warped
are
our minds and behaviour / perhaps we should all step out of the box /
and
take a good look at the paradox / children are starving and dying of
aids /
yet here we are, abusing our maids / in their suffering we take delight
/
and yet still sleep so well at night / i'm no genius when it comes to
poetry
/ and many may find my style funny / neither am i a saint from heaven /
i'm
merely a mortal twenty-four-seven / so are our maids, the less
fortunate /
they too are humans, and intricate / naked they have come into this
world /
naked you'll be, when it's time to go /

C to the N to the Y oh 'Hi!'
'aunties, uncles, gong xi fa cai!'
C to the N to the Y oh 'Hi!'
'aunties, uncles, gong xi fa cai!'

my rap battles

Inspired by the Eminem show
this is one of them poems you know
this one is all about my flow
this one in this world where sin bestow
sin among sin in every human
don't have to wait my turn you wait your turn
sin the thing that makes you burn
in hell it's true but when will we ever learn?

I fallen in love a couple of times
but none of them girls would make them mine
but I'm cool with that as a matter of fact
I'm still waiting to be with the one's who's all that

wrestling's my thing if you know what I mean
watched from the day announcer mean gene
from the WWF to WWE
Bret hart got screwed but vince said hell no
Bret screwed bret as far as I know

and what about the days I was in the army
with every doing wrong pushups 30
jumped off the plane the c-130
stand up hook up at the count of 3

now I study in the land down under
my course is all about your behaviour
makes me ponder shudder and makes me wonder
what my future will be in times of thunder

now I'm back for holiday
at first my mood was in a hooray
but it seems like I've had too long a stay
and I have no pay so no way I'm gonna stay

attached to some people I feel
but nontheless this place is not real
back in brisbane where life has more meaning
something about being there makes it more appealing

finish I must my education
tempted with lust and things like fornication
I hope I don't get put in a situation
aggrevation that will life my elevation
into the dark and lonely world
if only I had a guide I could call my girl

now it seems I'm left with one option
wait for february 23rd with anticipation
one nation to another nation
chill out at the beach and soak in the sensation
patient to be free again.

note: this is semi-biographical, and in no way reflects the artistic talents of the author cos it's all crap and probably one of the worst things anyone can write. but it's my blog so I write what i like. It also does not reflect author's mood and thoughts... just in case.

silly boy (parody of sk8r boi)

He was a beng, she was a lian
can i make it anymore obvious

He's into rap
she listens to jazz
more can i say?

He wanted her
She never tell
said it might have been possible

He did his best to win her heart
not knowing that everything was doomed from the start

He was a silly boy
who lived on a dream of toys
he wasn't good enough for her

She had a pretty face
but her head was off in space
she needed to come back down to earth...

1 year from now
he's back in town
wondering what he had missed in life

char kuay teow
and hokkien mee
those were expensive in Queenland you see

she changed her mind
now think he's her kind
wanted to make it all up to him
took him around
painted the town
but he had a change of heart

He was a silly boy
who lived on a dream of toys
she wasn't good enough for him

Now he's a undergrad
aiming for doctorate
he needs to complete 2 semesters

Sorry girl but you missed out
well I'm going to leave right now
I'll come back again some day
but not with you I have to say

too bad that I couldn't see
what a waste of time was she
I'm just gonna have to wait
for another pretty face

He was a beng
I am a lian
can I make it anymore obvious?
We are in love now go take a walk...
cos we love to hack YOUR BLOG...

blah blah blah...

Just because

Just because I sing a love song doesn't make a lover
Just because I pray the sinner's prayer doesn't make me whole

Just because I go to church doesn't make me less a sinner
Just because I give to the poor doesn't transform my heart into gold

Just like if I sang a song by Eminem doesn't make me a grammy nominee
Like if I pray to God doesn't make me holier than thee

Just like if I visited the library doesn't make me a book
so giving to the poor just shows that I am richer than I should

So when I sing a song to God my heart I pray will transform
Broken into pieces is where I belong

When I worship I am saying I am blessed
I am cursed, redeemed and I confess
I need God more than any other being
More than my parents, my friends and even Avril Lavigne

So when I sing a song to you my heart is full of praise
for the joy you have given me and for saving me all my days.

walk

Walk on into the valley
into the shadow of death
walk into the deepest secret
and keep it in thy heart

Walk above the ocean
into to red thundering sky
float like the angels around thee
upon clouds of despair and desperation

walk out of the pain
out of the wombs that causes birth pangs
See the scars that have healed
and the whippings that have made thee stronger

Walk away from the broken glasses
away from the thorns and thumbtacks
Sit down and have your feet washed
with precious Burberry's classic perfume God will wash your feet.

I saw you again

Your smile shows me you care
It brightens up my day
It tells me that you're happy to see me
And glad that I'm just there.

Laugh, smile at me
hug me without arms
touch me without hands
And kiss me without lips

Smile, look at me
with those eyes of admiration
look me in the eye
I look into your soul
and see your gentle breath

I saw you again today
and wish that time would pause for a moment
the reflection of a river so deep
deep with love and emotion
So vast as the ocean
I saw you again another day.

Growing closer to you

Getting closer to you
true, it makes me feel good
blessed, to have a friend like you
Blue, is when I have to leave you
confused, cos you just keep growing on me
It's funny, how you mean so much to me
In a short time, I've grown so fond of you
wonder if I'll go crazy when I leave
missing you deep surely.
Leave, I surely have to
Pursue, something on paper to
Tell others what I'm capable of
then I'll come back for you
See you again, grown up, grown on me, growing closer to you